ALittleBitAfter

It's been a week or so since I made my resolution for the future. How did it go you ask? It completely failed. Well, don't get me wrong. I went through with it for about two days, then I gave up. Why? Because I am human. Well, TRY HARDER! I could, I could try harder. But then I got a brilliant comment from a brilliant Dear Reader (oh come on, all of my Dear Readers are brilliant). It got me thinking to say the least.

Being someone who wants to follow Christ is what being a Christian is all about.

WRONG.

That's where I saw my biggest mistake. My biggest deception. My worst enemy. Pride. Now I can say that most humans have that horrible quality about them, but let me say this, it is amplified ten fold for men. Guys, I know how it is. We want to be strong, obedient, and manly! But we turn into the one thing God never wanted. We turn into heartless dogs that do what we are told (most of the time).

But back to my point. Being a Christian isn't about "following" or "doing." Now don't go yelling at the screen and calling me a heretic  Let me finish my point! Sheesh. Being a Christian is having a relationship with your Creator. Following Him and Obeying Him are just a couple of the amazing things we can do in our lives to make living that much better. But that's what it should be. It should be a bonus to what we should really be after.

For me being a Christian was following the rule book (Bible), you know, just a bunch of laws God threw out there and obeying it or not is up to us. If you disobey you were a horrible, disobedient sinner or follow His rules and you will live a happy fulfilled life!

WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!

Get the idea?

As a Christian I should be striving for a RELATIONSHIP with Jesus, not some servant that obeys his Master and stares at the ground (though the obeying part lacks a bit......). I need to look at Him in the eyes and TALK with him. He is my Father, he redeemed me. Just think about it, do you want a son or daughter that follows everything you say (well....most of what you say) and doesn't have a relationship with you? Or a child that sits down and talks with you? Basically a Mary or Martha analogy. By the way, my Bible class was talking about Mary and Martha recently, funny how that worked out.

See, Mary did the thing that was more important. She spent TIME with Jesus. Martha was doing work that would last for a night and die. She worked so hard for something that was so....uhhhh, what's the word...short-lived? Ugggg, I can't think of the right word. Long story short, Mary wins! That's my point!

However, that doesn't change the facts. I love Jesus. I thank Him for my life and the great blessing of knowing Him. But I still find myself sulking. Sulking to the fact that I still sin every day. Why? Why can't I just stop and be a Christian God wants me to be? But that's where the hole is. The hole that I couldn't seem to get out of. Life as a Christian isn't about obeying or not. Cause if it was....I think we would all be screwed by now (pardon the use of a carpenter's tool, but it seemed appropriate giving that our Savior was a carpenter). Yeah, we still sin, we still choose to live in the old when we are given the new. But who cares? God doesn't. You are forgiven. You are clean. Jesus paid for your sins. By God's eyes you look pure and beautiful.

Wait, slow down. So I can live however I want? Ummmmm, no. That's not what I am saying. The fight against sin will always be present in your life, to the very day you die. But don't focus on it. You fall and sin? Okay, ask God to help you. Fall and sin? Okay, ask God to help you. Still falling into sin? Well, maybe you should take a closer look at what the problem is. But that's personal. Back to my point. Don't kill yourself for sinning. It happens, we are human, we are imperfect. Stop QQ all over the couch! (QQ looks like a pair of eyes crying if you didn't know). I sin, you sin, we all sin. BIG WHOOP! Why don't we try harder the next time and move on?

You honestly believe you can achieve a sinless life? Ha, nice try. But you're not Jesus. I think God made it this way for a reason. We still sin to remind ourselves how sinful we really are. And that the only way for our redemption is through the blood of Jesus. Hallelujah, Amen.

So now I am going to start having a Father/Son relationship instead of a Master/Servant relationship. More personal. I mean, think about it. Why did God create us? He wanted to love us and we love Him in return. Isn't that basically it? And with that love comes obedience and a heart after God. Happy End, right?


"Oh one last thing before I end this extremely long post. Like the new blog look?"

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"Oh....okay, go put some bleach in your next beverage......Short creepy Michael Phelps fan-boy!"

                                                                                      ~Missingnomer and Ryan Seacrest