Moving here and starting a new life in an unknown land will rattle anyone's psyche. It is bearable. The journey is long and silent. Too silent for my liking. But I figured if I am to make new friends God will show them the way to me. I am done worrying and concerning myself when it comes to friendship. Friends come in good time and not much time has passed. A year ago I would probably classify this feeling that I have as depression, however, I neglected to mention that I only had four hours of sleep last night. It may affect the way I perceive reality...maybe.
My first semester in college is officially over. And YES. I made A's in all four classes. Don't start clapping just yet. Those four classes were light. I have a feeling the next semester will test my mettle. Five big old classes with large weapons await me in the new year. Just let me enjoy the month of laziness (aka Missingnomer Time). Thinking on the papers and tests I will have to study for make my head ache (is that just the lack of sleep talking again?).
The closing of the year is always a gloomy prospect. Just when you think you finished the good fight another year comes around the corner fresh from the bench. I think that is why we invented Christmas and New Year. Without those two calming holidays I would probably tear my clothes.
Speaking of Christmas! Nathan is coming back home to our new house for the first time. At least his presence will tide over the friendship hole for a couple of weeks. Apparently I will be attending a Bible study starting in the Spring, but who knows what might happen. If it is God's will....please let me make one good friend here in Texas.
Last week at church I heard a message that encouraged me. More importantly, it changed my outlook on life as a Christian. Stress, struggles, hate, and suffering are all in this glorious package known as the Christian Life. No Christian is immune to it. I should embrace this suffering. Without it I am nothing but an empty shell of faith, right? No man can love without hate. No man can forgive without holding a grudge. These things define us as humans on this earth. Heartache can only empower our walks. My heartaches are what make me feel alive. Even the depression and sorrow are fruits of my life. I am ashamed of them, but I have to accept them. Living in a broken world will scar you. It will scar you really bad. Praise God.
Joyous Christmas, Dear Readers. May we all see the next year with the eyes of the Maker.
"Songs for the End and New Year" - By Missingnomer
1. (Pretty Much Every Song By These Guys) - Colony House
2. Like the Dawn - Oh Hellos
3. Brother - Mighty Oaks
4. Oblivion - Bastille
5. See Me Now - The Kooks
6. O - Coldplay
7. I Know - Tom Odell
8. One - Ed Sheeran
9. Coming of Age - Foster the People
10. Lifting the Sea - The Hunts
6. O - Coldplay
7. I Know - Tom Odell
8. One - Ed Sheeran
9. Coming of Age - Foster the People
10. Lifting the Sea - The Hunts
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