SomePointsToSmootheOut

Things are starting to pan out, I think. You ever been through one of those, "There are way too many new things happening at once!" Feelings? Cause when you have nothing going on and then are thrown into the "get into college right now" pit it sure feels that way....

Some people, er, maybe most people would say that I should make some acquaintances. I would have to agree, secluding myself to just family is not the best. I need a fresh perspective on life. The stagnant days that pass by in the house suffocate any emotions of excitement or adventure. College seems to be that antidote my poisoned body needs. Not that seclusion and isolation is a bad thing, it is actually something I believe everyone should have. That short period of aloneness (I don't think that is a word) makes you appreciate others. I miss my friends, but now there is a new opportunity to make new ones. New, that seems to be the word of my life for the last five months. I can't say I welcome its company.

After watching that long video (which was actually very short when I started to watch it) made by my Elder Sage Sibling I actually miss the ocean. Who would of thunk?

Ah, the sweetness of memories. The sweetness is actually too sweet. If I dwell on it for too long it starts to sting my mind-tongue. When I finished watching it, all I wanted to do was make more memories. Can you guys make my wish come true? Only a few thousand dollars away! That's chump change when you think about it. *cough*

In all seriousness, life has been a bevvy of pondering. How can one go about thinking about the nature of life so much? Everyday I find myself thinking about it. Is this like, the last stage of puberty or something? Ahaha, if it is I must say, it is the hardest stage by far. I have never found myself in so much dilemmas concerning my life. My Christian walk just complicates everything. I keep focusing on all the negatives and give no time to the positives. Free-time, AWESOME! But unproductive. So very unproductive, but no one says I have to be productive, yet. Though now I am actually starting to enjoy this life a leisure. The hourglass is starting to run out, so I shall gladly enjoy these remaining months.

Life in America is simple, dangerously simple. But having no responsibilities is so nice. Now that I am signing up for college I have tasted the slight tang of responsibility. In fact, I am just about ready to sign up or classes. Do I like it? Why would you even ask that? It is on the same line of asking someone if they enjoyed their open heart surgery. NO! It was terrible! The thing is that I will have to get used it. Sitting in class again. I haven't done that in 7 years. I might be out of touch. I am too used to the teacher not noticing my loud snoring. Video homeschooling, what a privilege I took for granted.

All I seem to talk about is college and the intricacies of life. But that is what is real in my life right now. What is real in your life right now? I would love to hear about your problems too. 

My sister and I finished watching an anime together. Yeah! Crazy, huh? It seems like I corrupted another person, HUH?!?!?

I re-watched Fate/Zero with her. I watched it a couple of years ago and claimed it to be my favorite anime show ever (if you ever bothered to look an my MAL account you would realize that me saying something like that is kind of a big deal). Now that I watched it a second time it refreshed everything. Now I love Fate/Zero even more. The two (three if you wanna get deep) main questions that the show asks are, "What makes someone virtuous? Who decides that?" And the second question is, "What truly makes somebody a king?" The latter question is a bit odd to ask just anybody, but I believe every Christian should delve into it. After all, Jesus is supposedly the King of Kings, right? What makes somebody a king? 

When we finished the show I wanted to hear her thoughts on it. I am obviously extremely biased when it concerns Fate/Zero, so I wanted to see if other people shared my same thoughts and feelings towards it. She seemed unresponsive to it. She claimed the show to be very depressing and sad (both valid facts). But I was looking past that and trying to see what the author was conveying to the audience. He questioned the very fabric of humanity, which I do all the time. There are no answers to these questions, we can attempt to answer them, but someone will always see the answer to be something else entirely. I can't claim to know the right answers to these questions, but I love dwelling on them and discussing them with others. Not only are the questions the show poses life changing, but the story and characters that come along with the extremely mature thematic elements all tell an amazing story. 

Ha, I just promoted an anime. I deserve money.....