Life is just a trail we all walk. It just so happens that I am on the Christian trail, which happens to be very narrow and depressing. But shouldn't a Christian be happy? Nope. Just joyful in the slightest sense. I am joyful! Joyful because I have everlasting life and eternal forgiveness and acceptance. However, the ticket to a happy life is nothing but a childish pipe dream. Reality has so many things in store for me, good and bad. I should take it in strides. Then again, playing it slow is also nice.
I am comfortable right now. But isn't that bad? Maybe.
I sent my SAT and GED scores to the college I have chosen. All that is left is a Meningitis vaccination. Things are moving along, but it feels so mundane. I know what is going to happen. Go to college, get my piece of paper, get a job, etc etc. Having a life planned out isn't so bad. I suppose watching so many movies and TV shows makes me obligated to have an exciting and mysterious life, but really, what does that accomplish? Peaceful and uneventful, sounds good to me.
Everyone has their beliefs and convictions, so do I. But is it right to press those beliefs onto others? Maybe, but how do I share to someone without coming off as a self-righteous dweeb? I guess I'll find out as time goes on.
I tell my family that I consider myself to be wiser and smarter than most people, but in saying that does that make me foolish and stupid? Can a wise person ever claim to be wise? If I think myself as wise, am I? True wisdom comes from Above, I know that. I read the Bible sometimes, I pray, and I glean from others who have experience, but to truly KNOW something don't you have to experience it yourself?
Some people go through terrible things in life and others, like me, have yet experience anything of consequence. Is that a blessing? Or a curse?
A few things have been bothering me for a while, and they should! Often I find myself forgetting the problems in front of me. Things that shouldn't be pushed to the side. Who is God? What is God? Why should I care? Is it possible to care? We are humans. We were created, but for what purpose? To give glory to the One who made us? If you take God and turn Him into just another human being than wouldn't we just call that person arrogant and childish? Making an entire universe just to give Himself glory? Are you stupid? But I don't fell that way. I actually feel honored. Why is that? Is it BECAUSE He is God? Or because His reasons are so holy and righteous you just can't get mad at Him?
But people are mad at Him! Either through ignorance or sin, we all have a punch we would very much like to give God. I wouldn't mind giving Him a couple of good punches to were it really hurts, but I am not angry at Him. Just confused. Am I brainwashed or insane? Who really knows why I believe what I believe. It sounds like it is straight out of a fairy tail written by a mad man.
Logic itself goes against God. Why?
My mind is starting to hurt, but through all the questions and confusion I am at peace.
A peace that transcends human understanding.
Yo bro!! I've been having similar thoughts here with coworkers who don't believe the Gospel. One of the gals(actually the only gal here at Tamaki haha) made a good point concerning the difference between having faith and knowing. As Christians, We're not called to know; we are called to have faith. If you know the Gospel then you really don't because who now has seen the risen Christ. Love you bro and praying that your faith my grow. Keep convicted and living your theology not falling into double talk. Let's both read the Word far more
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